Wednesday, June 6, 2007
FUKITOL FDA Aprroval Pending
So the bedroom is PACKED!! So I am down to the kitchen which is DREADFUL. I have so much crap shoved into the kitchen cabinets it is unreal. Hubby is going to be so proud of me when he sees all I have accomplished during my anxiety prone packing frenzy tonight. Was my escape from thinking about crazy stuff and being hormonal! So that is one less thing to do :-) YIPPEE FOR CHERYL!
I ate waaaaaaaaaaaay too much today..I got in the car and drove to Taco Bell (yes I thought of you Chris) at 10am because I NEEDED IT BADLY! THEN...went by my parents this afternoon and Ill be damned that Dad is going to town cooking "for his developing grandbaby" so I ate BBQ and crap. Then I get home and eat leftovers....now guess what? Yes I feel SICK! Trying not to think about it and just suck on my sour candy (love you Kate!)
Ok I am done..good night to all!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Bob was Blind!
Monday, June 4, 2007
Monday Night
According to my calendar TODAY my embryo graduated to being a fetus. Kinda cool. I still "dont believe it" and just doesnt seem possible to be real! We go to the doctor next Tuesday the 12th and not sure what will go on. Think we will hear a heartbeat? Probably too soon for an ultrasound..THOUGH I WANT ONE SO BADLY!! Well I am off to pack for a little longer then going to bed! Thats another worry-I love my sleep, after the baby am I going to be a stark raving bitch cuz I never will sleep again?? If I dont sleep it IS NOT PRETTY. Worries Worries...
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Another Day...
Beth: thank you for the preggy pop info! I am sticking to sour hard candy now because preggy pops are EXPENSIVE and are the same thing as just plain ol' sour candy. THANKS!
Vicki: you are an angel! your knowledge eases my mind and calms my soul. you are a friend first and foremost!
So this post's question: Lower back ache..normal? Not PAIN..but just an achy feeling...maybe gas? Doesnt feel like gas, sure pregnancy is new to me but I have had gas a couple times in 28 years LOL. Oh...2 months 5 days first day to throw up. Well, I wouldnt call it "puking" but it was just vile stomach acid and that is about it. As soon as I finished that I was STARVING and ready to eat. OK this is completely insane!
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Saturday Stressing...
It is Saturday morning and it has been a LONG NIGHT of worry, tummy issues (NEEDED to puke and just didnt want to happen), and restless sleep. New worries?
- Getting FAT..I am already overweight and have had weight issues for my whole life. Food always sends me into a guilt mode. So, now I am pregnant (2 months 3 days) and seem to ALREADY be swelling up lower waist. Freaks me out to be honest. Sure I look forward to a preggy belly...but fat scares me!
- We need to move in less than 3 weeks...awesome and exciting one problem WE HAVE NO PLACE TO LIVE! Our loan doesnt go into effect until August 1st due to my job....Hubby needs to start work...renting is A JOKE in southern communities and quite frankly a WASTE when we want a house!
- Packing...OK I would love to get packed up and ready to go but my energy and motivation is PFFFFFFFFT! I just dont "FEEL LIKE" doing anything! I feel icky a lot of the time (wont do the TMI for everyone) but just dont feeeeeeeeeeel good.
Todays agenda: have to go to 2 games. Niece's softball and Nephew's baseball ok am I an evil aunt to PRAY FOR THE RAIN AND STORMS THEY ARE PREDICTING? Sitting out in the hot and humid afternoon just does not tickle my fancy. On top of that my night (see above) wasnt too glorious. But I feel guilty because we are "leaving them" to move and I do love them. Yeah Yeah I know buck up and go. I will just UGH...
So that is my Saturday, tomorrow is still up in the air. Probably go visit my parents and vent to them (well to mom anyway...dad doesnt deal well with my venting). And PACK...yeah..my mission will be 2 boxes done...that is an OK goal isnt it? Considering I need to do 1/2 the house still?
LOVE TO ALL AND THANKS FOR LETTING ME JUST "GET IT OUT" Will be posting some pics soon!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Mindless Ramblings
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Hormonal?
My love,
So what's up? I am guessing a lot of this is hormonal, but I know that the child inside of me is yours. I know it has the most wonderful parents in the world. Yes, it is very scary even though you have "been there and done that" it scares you as much as it scares me. I hate myself for thinking about bad things happening to this pregnancy. I pray the life inside of me cannot sense these thoughts and negative energies. But you know I would do anything for you. I am just scared, not scared about the DNA test, we can have 100 DNA tests done if you want. This baby is yours. We made it together with love and passion. I want you to be the father that you never had the full opportunity to be. I told you 8 years ago when I met you that I believed in you and that as long as we stick by each other we can accomplish anything. We are both strong individuals who have so much wisdom from our life experiences and that is why I am pregnant, because we as parents may not be rich financially, but we are rich in knowledge. Our child will be so lucky to have us as parents!
OK...that is as far as I have gotten. Let me explain. Hubby was married before as I had mentioned. After raising a baby for 2 years and the marriage beginning to fall apart, the child wound up not being his. It hurt and damage him as a father and as a man. I cannot blame him at all, I cannot imagine what that could be like!So that is the truth behind the DNA test thing. I admit, sure I should refuse, but I love him and sometimes we have to support the ones we love so fully even with their insecurities. Why the hell am I so scared? I guess because this is new to me and I feel like he shouldnt be scared?! Are we both going through the same thing? He can be a very "hard" man....and sometimes that leads me to doubting myself. Am I delusional? Advice? Please lets try not to be negative.