FUKITOL FDA Aprroval Pending

OK so I cannot take any medicine since I am pregnant...I wonder if the above is FDA approved and comes in a prenatal vitamin? I am tired. Tired of stressing, tired of worrying, tired of being TIRED. So this pill would be AWESOME! Can you even imagine? A mind eraser...just puts you in the "who gives a shit" mode!
So the bedroom is PACKED!! So I am down to the kitchen which is DREADFUL. I have so much crap shoved into the kitchen cabinets it is unreal. Hubby is going to be so proud of me when he sees all I have accomplished during my anxiety prone packing frenzy tonight. Was my escape from thinking about crazy stuff and being hormonal! So that is one less thing to do :-) YIPPEE FOR CHERYL!
I ate waaaaaaaaaaaay too much today..I got in the car and drove to Taco Bell (yes I thought of you Chris) at 10am because I NEEDED IT BADLY! THEN...went by my parents this afternoon and Ill be damned that Dad is going to town cooking "for his developing grandbaby" so I ate BBQ and crap. Then I get home and eat leftovers....now guess what? Yes I feel SICK! Trying not to think about it and just suck on my sour candy (love you Kate!)
Ok I am done..good night to all!

Bob was Blind!

So when we were at the beach the week before last I decided to wade in the rather turbulent ocean. It was all good until it WIPED MY ASS OUT...I not only lost the top of my swimming suit (and those of you who know me know that I am well....busty?) my glasses were gone. I KNOW I KNOW! WHY DID I HAVE THEM ON? Honestly because I have this idea that I will see a jelly fish/shark/crab/man-eating fish/or hell a hot lifeguard while in the ocean. The lifeguard I saw..until I lost the glasses. Think Baywatch ladies with a southern accent! So I have been BLIND for almost 2 weeks which means no driving...no reading the close captioning on the TV and well being frustrated! I found hubby's old glasses and wore them to watch TV I could see with them on great but upon taking them off a lovely migraine would set in. I just envision Sponge Bob with glasses! That is why they were washed away! And the swimsuit top? Not sure dont have a good remark for that one. Cheap thrill of the 80 year old leather skinned man on the beach?

On the baby front..I am hungry and sick at the same time. That is the most annoying feeling in the world! Oh and my pre-pregnancy monster bust is GROOOOOOOOOOOOOWING!! But dammit TMI but I am so excited-I never "really had" nipples and dammit I do now! I look at them with a proud heart and feel like that real woman! I should sing! "You make me feel...You make me feel...you make me feel like a naaaaaaaaatural woooooooman" No I am not drinking! Alcohol is a NO NO NO with little grape in mommy's tummy! Yep we have graduated to the size of a grape. Wonder if that has something to do with my grape juice addiction??

Ok shutting up: I apologize.

Monday Night

OK so I packed and fretted all day versus posting. But I am still here dammit just a little late. Not sure if anyone is reading my blog anyhow. Had an OK day for the most part I guess. Got some packing done, only have felt sick to my stomach this evening (was craving chili...BAD IDEA). I wanted to get pregnant SO BAD. It was all I thought about. I couldnt even be around pregnant people, babies, or look at the baby section without being completely depressed and sad (so I avoided these things entirely). Now that I am pregnant, I AM SCARED TO DEATH! It is like my mind wont let me be excited which is what I AM SUPPOSED TO BE well I thought I would be. I am not sure what I am to be quite honest. One minute it is exciting the next I am "what the fuck did I do?" Is this normal first mom-to-be jitters/anxiety? Does it get better? Am I nuts?
According to my calendar TODAY my embryo graduated to being a fetus. Kinda cool. I still "dont believe it" and just doesnt seem possible to be real! We go to the doctor next Tuesday the 12th and not sure what will go on. Think we will hear a heartbeat? Probably too soon for an ultrasound..THOUGH I WANT ONE SO BADLY!! Well I am off to pack for a little longer then going to bed! Thats another worry-I love my sleep, after the baby am I going to be a stark raving bitch cuz I never will sleep again?? If I dont sleep it IS NOT PRETTY. Worries Worries...

Another Day...

Sunday it is today has been LONG and it is not even dark outside yet. It is amazing to me that having a friend over and staying up most the night (which is nothing new) just about killed me. I am bitchy, tired, my lower back aches and just BLAH. I am guessing being pregnant makes all nighters a little more difficult? Was OK last night..but today...well enough said.
Beth: thank you for the preggy pop info! I am sticking to sour hard candy now because preggy pops are EXPENSIVE and are the same thing as just plain ol' sour candy. THANKS!
Vicki: you are an angel! your knowledge eases my mind and calms my soul. you are a friend first and foremost!
So this post's question: Lower back ache..normal? Not PAIN..but just an achy feeling...maybe gas? Doesnt feel like gas, sure pregnancy is new to me but I have had gas a couple times in 28 years LOL. Oh...2 months 5 days first day to throw up. Well, I wouldnt call it "puking" but it was just vile stomach acid and that is about it. As soon as I finished that I was STARVING and ready to eat. OK this is completely insane!

Saturday Stressing...

Ok so I skipped a day...SORRY!
It is Saturday morning and it has been a LONG NIGHT of worry, tummy issues (NEEDED to puke and just didnt want to happen), and restless sleep. New worries?

• Getting FAT..I am already overweight and have had weight issues for my whole life. Food always sends me into a guilt mode. So, now I am pregnant (2 months 3 days) and seem to ALREADY be swelling up lower waist. Freaks me out to be honest. Sure I look forward to a preggy belly...but fat scares me!
• We need to move in less than 3 weeks...awesome and exciting one problem WE HAVE NO PLACE TO LIVE! Our loan doesnt go into effect until August 1st due to my job....Hubby needs to start work...renting is A JOKE in southern communities and quite frankly a WASTE when we want a house!
• Packing...OK I would love to get packed up and ready to go but my energy and motivation is PFFFFFFFFT! I just dont "FEEL LIKE" doing anything! I feel icky a lot of the time (wont do the TMI for everyone) but just dont feeeeeeeeeeel good.

Todays agenda: have to go to 2 games. Niece's softball and Nephew's baseball ok am I an evil aunt to PRAY FOR THE RAIN AND STORMS THEY ARE PREDICTING? Sitting out in the hot and humid afternoon just does not tickle my fancy. On top of that my night (see above) wasnt too glorious. But I feel guilty because we are "leaving them" to move and I do love them. Yeah Yeah I know buck up and go. I will just UGH...

So that is my Saturday, tomorrow is still up in the air. Probably go visit my parents and vent to them (well to mom anyway...dad doesnt deal well with my venting). And PACK...yeah..my mission will be 2 boxes done...that is an OK goal isnt it? Considering I need to do 1/2 the house still?

LOVE TO ALL AND THANKS FOR LETTING ME JUST "GET IT OUT" Will be posting some pics soon!